[ she's agreeing for his sake, because it sounds reasonable and rational and she needs to pretend she's a reasonable person until she actually can be again.
we hoped for too much. what had carolina even hoped for, really? a civil conversation? some conclusion that he could hate their guts and still be capable of ignoring it? it hadn't felt like too much. but it's still unsatisfying and just how easily she can see the disappointment in wash's face doesn't help.
like not being able to fix this has let him down again. like it's dumb luck and people who are practically strangers to thank for him not being hurt again at the hands of someone fucked over by project freelancer. like every time she thinks she has all of the director's bullshit patched up and dealt with, it comes back.
he's still breaking her family from beyond the grave. she's still paying for his crimes.
(and god, connie really did have the whole thing figured out, if only anyone could have talked to her.)
she lets her eyes close, takes a deep breath. ]
I'm sorry he found out who you were.
[ she's sorry for a lot of things, but she can voice that safely, at least. ]
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[ she's agreeing for his sake, because it sounds reasonable and rational and she needs to pretend she's a reasonable person until she actually can be again.
we hoped for too much. what had carolina even hoped for, really? a civil conversation? some conclusion that he could hate their guts and still be capable of ignoring it? it hadn't felt like too much. but it's still unsatisfying and just how easily she can see the disappointment in wash's face doesn't help.
like not being able to fix this has let him down again. like it's dumb luck and people who are practically strangers to thank for him not being hurt again at the hands of someone fucked over by project freelancer. like every time she thinks she has all of the director's bullshit patched up and dealt with, it comes back.
he's still breaking her family from beyond the grave. she's still paying for his crimes.
(and god, connie really did have the whole thing figured out, if only anyone could have talked to her.)
she lets her eyes close, takes a deep breath. ]
I'm sorry he found out who you were.
[ she's sorry for a lot of things, but she can voice that safely, at least. ]